| It's amazing how quickly time goes by and how many things can change. Good things have happened, great things have happened, and some bad things have happened. I would consider most of it amazing, but there are a couple spots that stick out that are just horrible. But that's life. And all in all, I'm glad to be living mine. |
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| I don't want to go home. But I don't want to be here either. Maybe I'll take another semester off. But then I'll have to start paying back my student loan. Then I'm screwed. I need music in my life. Like not just me. Some other people who want to join me and not just be like "yeah this is fun" I want to do something with it. It's not a hobby for me. It's my life. It hurts that she moved on so quickly. I need money so badly. I got a check for 22 dollars yesterday. It's gone. I put gas in my car. It's so hard to survive like this. |
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| I'm not sorry I told her she didn't have to wait. I'm just scared to death that she's going to find someone else. Someone who is absolutely perect for her and she is going to fall in love with him while I'm trying as hard as I possibly can to be that person. I don't know. I gave the relationship up to God, and maybe last week was him telling me that there is someone else. But I just can't see my life without her in it. In every single aspect of my life she fits just right. I know it's too early for that relationship, but I wish she wouldn't have taken the out I gave her so quickly. I don't know what to do. We talked about stress tests tonight in church. If anybody needs one it's definately me. Please bring someone to me Lord who brings out you in me. But first help me be you so even when they can't I can still shine for you. |
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| School is starting as of Thursday. I'm not too worried about it, in fact, I'm going to do amazing this semester. I mean I have a lot on the line. But I have to get this loan to go through. Oh well. I'm looking forward to this year. I'm not going to let my dreams take a backseat to making a living. |
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| Dear DMC,
Today my father recieved a 2 minute standing ovation as he was announced as the new associate pastor of Wildwind Community Church. How about that. You guys missed out big time. Just thought I'd get the rumor mill started cuz I know how many of you pry and pick at this just for little tidbits of information about my family. Have and awesome day. :) |
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